Staind - For You Lyrics Meaning

I definitely relate to all of the teens relating to this song.I ,however am an adult relating intimately with song...15 years ago,when I was 36 years old and the Mother of 4 beautiful gifts from God...2 Sons and 2 Daughters and 1 on the way.Firstly,my 2nd Daughter at around age 8 started getting sickly.I was working days cleaning homes and nights cleaning medical buildings,so about 3 weeks had gone by and she felt to I'll at the dinner table to eat.I accompanied her to the restroom as she felt she was going to be sick.I removed her jacket and realized she had definitely lost weight.I put her on the scale and shockingly,she had lost 17 lbs.!An 8 yr old just does NOT lose this much weight if there isn't something terribly wrong!Emergency room here we come!To my horror,she was immediately diagnosed with Juvenile Diabetes type 1.I was horrified!I slept on the floor next to her every night setting my alarm clock for every 2 hours just petrified that she would go into a diabetic coma if I didn't check her blood sugar.At this same time,my 1st Son,who was 4 yrs old had been having extreme pains in his ribs and.his shoulder blade.The Emergency room just kept telling me a variety of random brush offs like oh kids pick up viruses from other kids.It will run it course,while looking at me like an overactive parent.The same explanation was given when the lymph nodes in his neck became swollen huge and tender.I have always found extreme interest in how things work and how to fix them if something goes wrong.Especially where the human body and mind are concerned.Well...I obviously spent many relentlessly sleepless nights researching symptoms that my beautiful Son was experiencing and as devastating as it was,my belief was that he had Cancer!My significant other mocked me,as well as the rest of my family.I had a drug addiction.There assumption was that my addiction was twisting my mind to even think this was possible.I invited ALL of them to come into home,my world and see just why i came up with this conclusion.Not 1 of them would do just that.They listened to my boyfriend tell them about me spending countless hours reading medical books in a closed room(my daughters),so I must have been in there doing drugs!Although I was way overboard on keeping track of my daughters blood sugars before sending her off to school,sometimes keeping her home an extra hour if they were off,I became the "Dope addict" that couldn't get her kid to school on time!When I did send her and blood sugars were off,then was irresponsible in keeping her b.s.maintained!I could literally write,ATLEAST a huge novel as to all the horse crap they drug me through...ENDING RESULT...The pain had gotten so horrible and constant for 3 days and nights for my Son,my Prince Charming SoftLips,that I finally convinced my family Doc to do a catscan.Well to everyone's horror,a tumor was found that had obviously grown for 10 months while I tried to get just SOMEONE to believe in ME as A Mother!My Son was immediately flown to CHILDRENS HOSPITAL in Seattle,Wa.If I could fill you in with all the details of the TORMENT that my family and my ex-Husband subjected me to,you would be horrified!Bottom line is...My beautiful daughter is 30 now w 2 beautiful children of her own and her Diabetes is well under control.On the other side of the plate is mySweet,loving,brilliant Prince Charming SoftLips left this earth at the tender age of 8, due to Ewings Sarcoma,a sft tissue CANCER that is VERY AGGRESSIVE!Remission twice...third time returned...My baby boy stated"I just want to go home" What they told me would be3-6 months,became 7 F...... DAYS!It disgust me that my Ex whom had NOT BEEN AROUND for approx.3 1/2 years due to his drug addiction had been allowed to authorize HOSPICE to quickly euthanize my Son by giving him a cocktail of pain meds to shut his organs down and speed up his dieting without my knowledge!I rocked him and sang to him until his very last breath.Upon returning from the last potty break I took,i immediately noticed that his oxygen mask had been taken from him and the oxygen machine shut off.I screamed at them to give it back to him(and they did) as my ex(his Father who was drunk and on cocaine)screamed at me about how I was just trying to prolong it while going outside slamming the door! I cant help but wonder...if maybe everyone had NOT been so judgemental and stereotypical,if maybe,JUST MAYBE...MY GORGEOUS PRINCE CHARMING SOFTLIPS,MAY STILL BE WITH ME TODAY....This is when I heard not only this song by Staind,but several others,as well as many songs by Creed(Hooray for the child)I chose as one of his graveside songs that I felt they totally related to my situation and wrote for me.Therefore "For You"became For Me!I now refer to it as 'My Song' Much Love and God Bless these artists for letting me feel that there was actually people,REAL PEOPLE that had experienced this kind of degrading by other PEOPLE...SO MUCH TRUE LOVE for these artists...they got me through when I felt the entire world was AGAINST ME! ,