I think this song is, as others have put it, amazing. With its melancholy sound and its lyrics... The simplicity of it all overwhelms any listener, and touches them in some way or another. As for the meaning, it is obvious. A seventeen year old boy was bullied and pushed too much until he couldn't take it. He wrote his desires and even planned what he was thinking of doing in his notebook, his only little piece of reality, his sanctuary, his safe haven (my notebook will explain). And the bullies took that away from him too. So what is there left, but to go through with his plan? To him it was obvious that no one would care if he was gone, and when in the video for this song was almost done... It became somewhat true with the empty hallways...
What the bullies did was provoke what he felt. If he shown any sign of weakness, like his excessive writing in his notebook, they would find it and use against him, like they did. His parents didn't think what he was feeling was real (my parents had no clue that I ate all my lunches alone in the bathroom), the bullies didn't think he felt a thing, even his teachers didn't believe him (teachers said it's just a phase), and no one cared to ask if he really did....
So the only escape from it all was to actually go through with his final plan....
Death...
There's nothing to lose
When no one knows your name
There's nothing to gain
But the days don't seem to change
There's nothing to lose
My notebook will explain
There's nothing to gain
And I can't fight the pain....
There's nothing to lose
When no one knows your name
There's nothing to gain
And I just died today.....
So to anyone that reads this, I am a fiftenn year old freshman in high school, and I know exactly how he feels. And basically from third grade 'til now, I've been teased, picked on, pushed & locked into a closet, and was verbally abused from all the "in" crowd that convinced themselves that even though they tortured me, they were still my friends so they could mooch off me... And since now I started high school that no one I knew goes to, I could start fresh, but it still clings to every strand of memory you have. And it makes connecting to others and making friends even more difficult everyday. Bullying does affect people, whether they know it or not, it does...
And I've tried his plans a few times, it's just that he succeeded while I was stopped.
Just know that
